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Deductions [Sherlock/Reader]

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You're spiraling out of control again, losing your balance in a spinning world where a stable mind is required to survive.  You are one of the unlucky ones though.  You are one of the ones that has to wake up in the morning after praying to God - if He exists - that he would let you die in your sleep before it's time to take endless rows of pills with your cereal that will only weigh you down with guilt after you brush your teeth and step on the scale.  You listen to slam poetry and music you can relate to, be it hardcore or alternative, indie or punk, or maybe spoken word, just so you can see you're not quite alone in this.  Books are your friends, alongside solitude, but in moments like these you would give anything for one of your actual friends to find you and know what you need.

You sit on your bathroom floor, tracks running down your cheeks while you mourn over another lost attempt at happiness - after looking in the mirror and telling yourself "I love you" for the umpteenth night in a row you've only succeeded in turning yourself into a bigger liar.  Eventually you manage to pull yourself to your feet and slip out of the bathroom into the dark hallway, slinking as silently as you can back to your bedroom.  So it's not too surprising when you're nearly scared out of your wits when a deep voice rumbles softly behind you, "Wait."

"Jesus Christ, Sher, you scared me," you manage to laugh lightly - or so you hope - quickly wiping your eyes as you turn back around.

"Oh, stop that," he snaps, causing you to jump slightly before he amends, "Sorry, just… stop that."

"S-stop what?" You smile uncertainly.

"You know what."  He pauses.  "But you won't say it with your own lips because you're afraid I'm not talking about what you think."  

Without hardly a pause for breath he continues, "You fake a lot of things, [y/n]; smiles and laughter being the main two.  But also why you don't get much sleep.  When I first inquired about the bruises under your eyes you claimed you just have trouble falling asleep - nothing out of the ordinary - but it's more than that.  You don't want to.  

"You sneak out of your room every night between the time of twelve and four and sometimes if I listen closely enough I can hear you talking to yourself.  Many times you've come out with puffy red eyes - clearly from crying - and no I did not spy on you.  I know because of the time I bumped into you when you went to make a cup of tea and I was leaving the kitchen.  But I also know why you're avoiding sleep.  A few nights I've woken to the sound of you having nightmares - you're afraid of them, whatever they're about.  

"I also notice how you almost always have your arms bandaged - you wear long sleeves to hide it but it becomes obvious when people grab onto your wrists - you flinch - and panic if the sleeves ever roll up slightly.  Did you really think I wouldn't notice any of that?  I'm surprised at how much you've underestimated how I care for you, [y/n].  And I thought you were clever."

Before you have time to come up with an excuse or explanation, he leans down and presses his lips against your forehead with enough pressure to imply a promise and for once in your life you allow yourself to smile for real because the way his cool fingers hold your warm face between them makes you feel secure, even as you feel the world spinning beneath your feet.


[I promise I'll take care of you like no one else has understood how, love.]
Pixelled Copyright by Sophibelle
Stupid fluff because I was comforting myself last night after another suicide scare.  Sorry not sorry.

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NewWholockian's avatar
This story is so beautiful and it resonates with me. Thank you I needed this tonight. Just one of those days... ♡♡♡♡